You may find this amazing or crazy, but there has only been one night, just one, that I had a hard time sleeping because of all this... Parts of me wonder of that means I'm somehow psychotic... Oh wait, I think its called peace.
I'm almost caught up to the present at this point. pretty soon my updates are going to be new to everybody (including me). Some you you may have already heard all this directly from me... So it won't be long before there's something for everyone, as they say...
This missing piece to the puzzle is the colonoscopy. If you've never had one, count your blessings! It's not a good time. Actually, the colonoscopy itself is a breeze; it's the preparation that stinks! You have to drink a gallon of what is basically antifreeze... 8 ounces at a time every fifteen minuets until it's gone. Oh, and you have to fast for several hours before and, and several hours after. (I've lost over 15 pounds since all this started just from all the starvation diets I've been on!) The "cleansing" is terrible.. Sounds like fun, eh?
That being said, anybody over 50 should get checked out! Any family member of mine on either side should get checked out too. I'm 39, and that's a long way from the normal scheduled check. Research says it normally takes between 10 and 15 years for a polyp to develop into cancer. If that's the case, and this was the delivery method of my cancer, this started before I was 30! My oldest child is 10. (Do the math...)
What if I caught this somehow right at the beginning? If I found out I had cancer at 29, would we have pursued children? Would I have these 3 amazing, wonderful kids? If I had it to do over, I would choose finding out now, and having my kids every time. I pray that I'm not going to leave them early... I have two daughters that need to be walked down the aisle someday, and a son that wants to be a professional hockey player more than almost anything. (Even his "girlfriend" is a hockey player... she's a keeper!) I would very much like things to get back to normal, but I have no idea what normal is right now...
Anyway, I had my procedure, and it was OK. I went to sleep, and woke to a doctor explaining that it went really well. I got the results in less than 24 hours (I didn't think that was possible!), and the results said colon, and NOT pancreatic cancer! Praise God!!!
Next step; the port.
dun dun DUN!
So just trying to catch up here. To summarize: colon & liver, yes. Pancreas, clear. Port installed and time to start kicking cans & taking names.
ReplyDeleteyes, that is the current score... To add: I do not have liver cancer per se, I have colon cancer in my liver. That's kinda a good thing from a chemo standpoint. One drug kills both!
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