What a day may hold...

You never know where your day may take you. I had spent the previous three workdays (Thursday, Friday, and Monday) calling the Cancer Center asking for results or this particular test they were running because o my elevated CA19-9 level. Today, I just wanted to go to work

I was sick of asking, so I didn't make my traditional 9am call. I didn't make my 11:30am  call (gotta catch 'em before lunch), I just went about my business doing service calls in Grand Rapids, and then Lansing. It wasn't until I finished my call in Lansing that I figured enough already, and called in. I called the main line, and was told a nurse would call me back. I called the number for the financial assistant that was assigned to me, but she didn't answer. I called several times within an hour. I got no where.


I finally got the call just before 5pm that is was colon cancer and NOT pancreatic cancer. I know I've said it before, but i feels weird to be thankful for colon cancer, but compared to the alternative, this is the best I could hope for!

I've remained pretty calm though out this whole affair. I've only lost sleep one night in the past month (that's how long I've known about this). I've said it before; I'm not afraid to die, but I fear for my family. I do not want my children to resent God because I "abandoned" them. So i have a lot to live for, and will continue to fight

This is what I fight for. Not the puppies... the people, don't be ridiculous

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tooth and nail as long as I can. For whatever reason I feel pretty confident that this is going to work out. I wish everyone else felt the same way.


Angela took Calvin to the doctor with an earache this morning, it's the same office that my primary doc resides in. Angela mentioned what was going on with me to her, so she looked up my charts (Spectrum is huge, ain't it?) I wish she would have had something encouraging to say. Instead she was asking Angela if my will was in order! Thank you so much! I choose to believe the oncologist, you know the guy who does this for a living, when he says I have a decent chance of beating this. Not the family physician who was just absorbing this for the first time, I'm not so naive to think that stage IV cancer is not a monumental obstacle to overcome, but I'm not accustomed to losing... I do not plan on losing here either!